I’ve Finally figured it out…
Princesses flowers and butterflies
Let me see the sun set and riseTell me these lies,
that force my eyes To search for them as if they exist
Teach me at a very early age that the more it hurts , the more I should persist
Because ..that , is a test of love
Prince charming and frogs and lullabies
And wizards who grant wishes and quiet cries
I need my pumpkin on 22’s to take me off into the sunset
Until my knight in shining armor arrives my fairy tale isn’t done yet
So I will wait , patiently Because I know this is meant for me
Meanwhile I will do my best not to recognize
The fault in the lies
And watch time fly , past my ignoranceAnd thru my future
There are no sutures for wounds with immeasurable depth
Cause by the theft Of reality and realistic expectations
Hell all this damn time I have been waiting
And waiting ..for humming birds to sing me songs
And a fairy God mother to come along
And grant me favor in a pretty white dress
And give me all of the answers to pass loves test
And fill my life with blue skies and perfect weather
As I exist in a utopia of Happily AFTER ever.. Since ive waited for EVER
These untruths have left me void of purpose
Just wandering thru “relationship” after “ relationship”
Knowing that I deserve the ONE and he will arrive by 11:59PM
And every dude I seem to pick isn’t him
And right about now I am pretty darn upset with that fairy heffa
However, she is no where to be found
When Im singing Mary J Blige “Im going down”
Eating ice cream and sipping wineWhile I pour the remains of my heart out to my girlfriends who are tired of hearing this crap for the infinite # of times
IM!!!
Finally fed up
And I know that tears are inevitable I will cry them
No fairy’s will follow me around to dry them
Kleenex and the seams of my shirts will do the trick
I know that Mr perfect does NOT exist
And so I don’t wear watches monitoring time
Picking apart every line
In my horoscope that says THIS month is the time for me to settle down and he is going to be at star bucks in a blue shirt Totally waiting for me to give him the eye
AHH I’ve got it now.
There is no trick ,
no secret #s to pick
To get …the love that I yearn
I have to patiently YET proactively wait my turn
And once I conquer desperation….the battle is half won.