Disenchanted

It wasnt my intention to feel this way . Which ever way I am feeling now, still undefined. My emotional vocabulary is very limited. He made it very clear that there was nothing between us, and if there were, he had already gotten over it . LOL . This is sincerely funny to me. THEN he acted in ways that contradicted his words. And I reciprocated these actions.And I found myself confused. IGNORANCE ISNT ALWAYS BLISS. So I asked the ? He gave an answer. I wish i coudl have given that answer BACK. "Finders keepers".There was a hint of hope in my heart that the actions were as sincere as my reactions. But this wasnt the case. So , disenchanted and distanced I am as if we never were. Because we werent lol. BUT strangely , I still llike this person .WHy ? Once he assumed and wasnt 100% correct, but i found myself strangely leaning toward that assumption afterwards. He's right I think too much .It isnt a" i like you so much LETS be together kind of thing " It's a "sometimes I feel like I want to be closer to you , but i know that teh distance is safe, but let ME control teh distance" kind of thing.But the THING is fading . Like hair color after sevral washes and too much Sun! Going ....Going...........................REVIVE ME! lol ...IM JUST joking .